一个问题

昨天也就是星期四11月26日
如往常的我家举行了discussion group~
大家一起来温习biology~
er...所谓的大家也是只有三个人罢了啦= =
牛，羊都来了我家读书，那个牧人〉〉也就是ck没有来
因为他要去the mines book fair买Dai 9 wong的限量版写真集
真是败给他了，算~我明白的，作为他的兄弟当然是
祝福他和Dai 9 wong 的幸福咯XD~
基本上那个discussion group对我来说很有用啦~
对我来说啦~牛和羊我就不懂啦= =希望有吧~

= =现在才发现到假如来多几个鸡和鸭啊~猪啊~
我的家岂不是变成了农场？(= =)rz
囧~rz说真的我给牛和羊欺负到很惨啊~wuwuwuwuwu~(T T)rz
哈哈，基本上是好玩啦~一定要说的客气点，
要不然今天我被它们又XXX还有XXXX了~
也许我真的应该叫hoi kor来助阵~(= =)V

温习到某种时候，牛无端端要问我一个问题
其实也没什么拉，当时的表情可以说是我特地做出来的吧？
那个问题就是我对她还有感觉吗？见到她会心跳吗？
那时我的答案一块块的~paiseh~
现在我正式回答这个问题吧，
答案是有，虽然想也不敢妄想。
我不想连现在和她难得恢复了朋友的关系再次失去。
可是讽刺的是我却不想维持这个关系，然而我没那个勇气踏出那一步。
我用了两年时间来冲淡这段感情，然而却在就快成功的时候
她来考验我了，我是否有真的放下她呢？
结果我再一次失败了？我也不知道。
不过，我现在的答案是等待，我不会再去采取行动
因为我害怕失去一段朋友关系，一个特别的朋友的关心也好。
我选择了等待，直到那个不明确的乌云明朗起来我再决定也不迟。
先面对spm是我答案，然而我考physic当天也就是她的生日，
我和她分手的那一天，就是因为这样我才无法忘记她的生日
那应该是我一生第二次伤害了自己与别人的一天吧。
傻瓜也许不是我，笨蛋也许不是我，但是臭男人一定属于我。
我就是这样没胆量，却在那边渴望着。
watashi baka baka bakaaaa~

2008年7月
Secondhand Serenade-It's not over
lyrics-
My tears run down like razorblades
And no, I'm not the one to blame
It's you or is it me?
And all the words we never say
Come out and now we're all ashamed
And there's no sense in playing games
When you've done all you can do

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over


I lose myself in all these fights
I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led
But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

It's not over, it's not over, it's never over
Unless you let it take you
It's not over, it's not over, it's not over
Unless you let it break you
It's not over

这首歌也是其中一首Secondhand Serenade 的emo songs.
这次我放这首在第三位吧
因为我要放
陶喆-普通朋友
胡彦斌-waiting for you
这两首在前面，因为特别的有一种等待的感觉。